I was told from a doctor at a later date, that it was a miracle that I was still alive.
I had surgeries and have been hospitalized for about a year.
Therefore, I quitted my job.
When I woke up in bed, I saw the scenery from the window which was really bright.
I found them very beautiful, the mountains in the distance, rivers with slow stream, small town far away.
The beam of the sun through the window glass made a pattern on sheer white curtains.
Air through the window made that curtain alive.
I had so many surgeries, that I felt myself like a patchy doll.
While I was attached to the bed, only the teddy bear that my mother brought watched “me” all the time.
Once I got some strength gradually, I faced to that teddy bear by sketching it in silence.
I faced with the sceneries in my memory and the “teddy bear” in the room.
That made me face with myself.
I’m painting the “teddy bear” to face with myself.